A North Carolina woman says she is happy with her choice after she intentionally blinded herself.
Jewel Shuping said that her fascination with blindness began when she was a child.
“When I was young, my mother would find me walking in the halls at night, when I was three or four years old,” she told Barcroft Media. “By the time I was six, I remember that thinking about being blind made me feel comfortable.”
Shuping, 30, has Body Integrity Identity Disorder (BIID), a rare psychological condition causing an able-bodied person to feel they are meant to be disabled. In 2006, she blinded herself with the help of a psychologist willing to drop drain cleaner into her eyes.
“It hurt, let me tell you,” she said. “My eyes were screaming, and I had some drain cleaner going down my cheek burning my skin. But all I could think was, ‘I am going blind, it is going to be okay.'”
Shuping added that the day after the incident, she was “joyful,” until she realized she could still see.
However, her vision gradually disappeared over a six month period. Her left eye collapsed in on itself and was later removed, and her right eye has glaucoma and cataracts.